Climbing Out of The Rut...

Ever look around and find yourself in a rut??  From time to time I have found myself there, too. There are weeks when being at home is lonely, I am grumpy, and I feel like no one listens or understands me! There's no one to give you a pat on the back, no pay bonus', not a single adult on most days to talk to. We barely have time to get the "required" stuff accomplished so sometimes, as much as I want to go to play dates and other extras, it just feels overwhelming! The kids are young and getting out is quite the task! But as much as I know this, I know, too, that I will blink and these years will be gone and they will all be independent and easy to go out with, and probably won't need their old mommy quite as much!
Over the past 4 years, I have gotten used to being at home (huge adjustment at first, I won't lie). I have gotten used to the "routineness" of life, the lack of "atta' girl's" from my "employees"...actually often it is much the opposite...more like "tantrum, talk back, throw out in the floor to let Mommy know we love her", kind of moments! ;)  I have gotten used to cleaning in circles (over and over and over and over again) and mountains of laundry every day! I have gotten used to looking like I have done absolutely nothing in an entire 8 hours.
I don't know why I was chosen to do this, I can't explain the overwhelming need to be at home and homeschool and have more than the two kids (people who find out you have three and aren't quite done yet...the reaction is just silly), that God has placed in my heart...but as much as I can't explain it to anyone, I can't argue it either. I know without a doubt that I would be unhappy doing anything else. But on occasion (just as the rest of you do), work and life gets you in a rut. And I was there! Big time!! But this week has been different...lighter. Brighter. I am finally climbing out. The kids are cooperative (temporary I know!), everyone is well and we are accomplishing the "required" stuff without too much of a hassle! I am finally accepting that the parents aren't close by  and what was, isn't what is! The rough days are guaranteed to return! The ruts will come, but I am so thankful for this week to affirm I am doing something, (even if just a little something), I am doing something right.

I won't win awards or get any bonuses, but I love being here. I love watching the kids learn and grow and more importantly I love being a part of it!
Grady's blossoming into a toddler right before our very eyes!! He loves singing his ABC's and chasing the big kids! And the cutest thing now is how he stands in front of a door or window and moves so the sunlight shines on his face...and following that, when he finally gets it in the right place, are the sweetest little giggles!
Grayson and I have had a pretty awesome couple weeks in school! I was unaware how fun a unit on goats and then cows could be! :) We are jumping into reading! And it's just been fun!!!
And Ada is marching steadily towards 4,  in all her princess ways! :) She will have a gymnastics recital this upcoming weekend and is so excited!! She practices her "routine" for us and she's so proud! Not to mention our very favorite people in the world will be here with us to watch! Always a happy day when grandparents come to town!! :)