Chris, the kids, and I are overjoyed to anticipate and plan for the arrival of a sweet rainbow baby this coming late November/ early December. As most of you know, we lost our spring baby in September of last year. This has been an incredibly difficult, emotionally trying, and teachable time in our lives. A lost pregnancy certainly steals some innocence from the joys and happiness of pregnancy, and teaches you to cherish each and every moment just a tad bit more. It also helps ground you in the knowledge that, yes bad things happen, no one is immune to loss, and even then God is right there, showing His face, sharing His peace, and revealing His promise in your life.
So far, I'm at the point in pregnancy where I'm beginning to question if I will ever be a productive person again, overwhelmed with exhaustion and all day nausea. But the morning sickness and fatigue are welcomed and pleasing, every little change is a reminder that life is growing inside, and we are joyful and ecstatic to be blessed with another pregnancy and baby to love. Whether it be for weeks, months, or years, this baby is a sweet blessing from God and we will cherish every single minute! This little one is already so loved! We have had countless conversations about the future, we have tossed around names, we've put in our boy or girl guess (I'm still very undecided but the kids had an opinion right away!), and already dreaming about what joy this little one will add to our lives!
We are thrilled with the pending arrival of this little one. I look forward to the joys of pregnancy and all the experiences that come with. I am the healthiest this go round than ever before, this is our first baby we will welcome in our 30's, and this is our last one, so it's different, but a great different. There's completeness and wholeness with this pregnancy, and joy. I prayed for nothing else, other than joy when and if we conceived again. I didn't want to be anxious and worried, wishing away the last pregnancy of my life. I want to really enjoy and live in this season, because this will end this chapter of our lives. I am so so incredibly grateful for the opportunity to mother and parent these amazing children. I don't know yet if this is a little girl or little boy, and won't know until they are in our arms, but I do know that just the sound of their heart beat completes me! It is an amazing child God created just for us to love, and love we do! I can't wait to see what the final count will be, if this is a little sister or brother! It will be such a blessing to see our family complete! We certainly covet your prayers as we progress and grow this little rainbow, and we know that God already has the most amazing plan for this little life!
