Fill Up

This weekend, we had some of our favorite company, attended church and a little girlfriend time this evening! It's been good. 
I struggled spiritually this week a little...just wrestling with things, most I can't change or control. Most of which are of no real concern to anyone but me! Ha. Y'all know by now I over think and dissect things way too much! But I think a little spiritual struggle here and there is good for us! Helps us evaluate where we are and where we want to be. 
And, this week, time and time again I was lead back to looking in the face the things that distract me. The things that take my attention off The One and ones that really matter. The things that dull our light a little from time to time. The things that empty our tank before we even realize it's empty! So this week, I am disconnecting. Disconnecting from some of those distractions and spending the time I used on it to read up, pray up, and fill up on Jesus. I removed a few time consuming apps from my phone (I admit, I am a social media junkie!), hope to stop dwelling on people and things I can't control, and I intend on putting certain things first, that seem to slip further back on the to-do list than they should be! 

On the way to church this morning, this song was playing...

"I believe everything that You say You are 

I believe and I have seen Your unchanging heart
In the good things and in the hardest part
I believe and I will follow You
I believe and I will follow You"

It was just what I needed. I have been asked several times, over the years, and even wondered myself, how some people who have had their fair share of struggles in the past, turn out okay and why some spend their whole life, it seems, trying to find themselves. My only explanation, from a personal view, is at some point we have to realize that Jesus is who He says. We have to realize that people, in their humanness, let us down. Every single time. We have to realize there is nothing else that will satisfy or fill our hearts. It was designed by God to be filled with God. And when we humble ourselves to see this and realize this, a transformation happens. One that often can be witnessed or felt but not explained. I am so thankful for my own reliance on The One who created me, and I realize I am nothing...NOTHING, without Him. He makes me whole. And yet, even though I am so grateful, I tend to fill up on everything else but Him. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." How wonderful is that?!? Just as the sweet children's song says, "they are weak, but He is strong." His grace and power will fill you up. In our weakness, He is strong. I will be the first to tell you, I am WEAK!! But it's in that weakness, we find His strength. And, today, I am thankful for His grace and His strength that covers me. Leads me. Guides me, right back to Him. Every time. And because He makes you strong, go help strengthen someone else. Don't let The Enemy dull your light or empty your tank. "If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, ‘From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water." (John 7:37-38) Fill up on Living Water. It will change you. 

Happy Sunday! <3