I had a precious parenting moment, one you kinda want to remember forever. One that reminds you what you're doing all this for, or why you do what you do. It may seem so insignificant to some but it really hit a spot with me.
I'm an super sensitive introvert by nature, so I don't seek out too many extra curricular activities or relationships, because any introvert would understand how mentally exhausting that is. Don't get me wrong, the kids take piano, gymnastics, soccer, football and are highly active in our church. But for our schooling we have chosen to do our own thing, outside of co-ops etc. that are available and this suits us! It's a busy season, a tiring one, and often a season of solitude, on my end. Be it just the way things have played out, my growing up years, or just my personality, most days are quiet and usually just revolve around the children's school, activities, or needs. I have a handful of wonderful close friends that communicate regular via text. We can share stories, encouragement, and love this way! And I'm so grateful for them and their continued support and encouragement, even in this knee deep (probably more like head high, but you get the idea! 😉) season of motherhood!
We do our thing, and occasionally I find myself wondering if my children are okay with this life, it's simplicity. It's different from most but we are content and really feel like we are where God wants us. I look at them some days and wonder if any of it really matters much. But little reminders and comments from them sneak in to let me know, however different our life is, it is the perfect, most fitting life for us, and they are happy, as are Chris and I.
On this particular day, the kids finished up their school work and were eager to head outside (as they always are!). They play a little outside before we start and usually play out until lunch time. Their play is very imaginative and self directed. I intervene very little and so far they never get bored and rarely disagree with one another! I tend to stay out of the way and just check in every so often. Well today, when I was walking out, I could hear lots of encouraging and praising going on but wasn't sure for what. As the children made their way around the house, I saw that the big kids were teaching Grady to ride his big boy bike! They were so patiently encouraging him and explaining what to do. He was so receptive of their guidance and had so much faith and trust in what they were telling him and showing him. And before lunch, they had him going on his own! It was so beautiful!
Not only do I hope they do these things for one another as long as they live, it was so representative of what I hope and dream for them in this life. I hope they are always willing to learn from each other, teach one another and have faith in one another, as well as having the same faith and willingness in God as they journey through this life. Life is tough sometimes. It gets hard. Things happen we don't understand and may never. Our journey may look nothing like most people we know, and that's okay! I want them to be strong and faithful. I want them to be learners and teachers. I want them to represent God and be a light were The Light is hard to find.
So, in their innocence and play was a beautiful moment I hope to always remember, and this moment was just validation I needed right now to show me what we do all this for. Why we are where we are, and I'm so grateful God led us here. My heart is so full ❤️
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