Hello Second Trimester

So! Here we are, 14 weeks into the last pregnancy of our life, for Chris and I! It's flown by yet crept at the same time, if that makes any sense. I've pretty much felt like I've been less than human for the last 2 months, and wonder how I already made it through 3 of these. But that's okay. it's all for a good cause! ;) I certainly don't experience the excessive morning sickness like some, but I do experience allllll day nausea and it's so hard to function like a normal person when your woozy and tummy turning all the time, BUT! We made it! :) Now on to the good part! Last week, I began to see a little light of the second trimester beginning to shine though! Not everyday but maybe 2 out of 7, I felt pretty good! And that's an improvement from the previous week, so the good part is definitely on the horizon!

We got to hear baby's heartbeat and what a sweet sweet sound it is!! Baby is about

the size of a peach now, they say! So sweet! I still haven't fully made my call in what gender I think we will welcome on December, nor has Chris, and chances are, if I make one, I will be wrong! ;) So we will just call it our "broster", which the oldest has named baby. :) 

The first trimester, as I mentioned has been a struggle as far as energy level and motivation is concerned, it's also had very worrisome and anxious times, and it's been full of odd dreams...i do all kinds of things and go all sorts of places while I sleep! It's been quite entertaining. Other than the weird dreams, exhaustion, light headedness and nausea, it's been a good three months symptom wise! I'm still able to jog a tad and workout when energy allows, definitely looking forward to a slight increase in the months to come as the energy returns! I miss regular exercise soooo much. It's a big part of our life now, and it's wonderful for a mood enhancer and physical boost. A small amount of weight has been gained but very proud of still carefully weighing the food options...most of the time...I give in definitely more than previous months and eat way more often, but still overall pretty good on the food front! :) The children are great support and we talk lots of baby! They are at such a curious age and really have lots of questions and comments. It's really fun to engage in these conversations with them. We discuss each week what new things baby is doing and what fruit we can compare size to! It's so fun! They are extremely patient with their Mommy's moments of irritability, because let's be honest, that definitely comes with the baby growing territory...and I am so grateful for their love and understanding. Grayson is beginning to take some responsibility in the kitchen, preparing meals and assisting with different jobs, it's fun teaching him and he's an enthusiastic learner in these areas! Ada is head over heels about baby and is such an encouragement and so compassionate towards baby and mommy. She already gives baby tons of hugs and love! Grady is in to talking about baby as well, but of course understands less than the others...and  I'm pretty sure he thinks we are having a fruit...one week a strawberry baby and the next week a peach, he can hardly keep up!:) These big brothers and big sister are gonna be the best! We can't wait to meet our little caboose! The one who will complete us! 

This has been an emotional time. Anxiety comes and goes, I think my age, the fact that we have three healthy kids and following a loss all adds to the anxiety a bit. This weeks check up, hearing a strong heartbeat and calm reassurance from our physician has definitely eased my mind somewhat and I am grateful! I almost...almost...feel relaxed enough to really start to enjoy it a bit. We go back in about 5 weeks to see baby on sonogram, which brothers and sister will join for that! 

So we now begin our second trimester with grateful hearts and anticipation of the future. Here's to 25ish more healthy and happy weeks! We are so excited to see who this little one is and watch them grow! Our hearts are so full and so complete! 💗